i've been crumbling since a long time ago. but now instead of crumbs chunks of me are falling off. i've been feeling like crap since mon, and i tried to pull a long face but everytime i see my class and hear the usual jokes, i somehow manage to laugh along. i can't help but be happy, but joy disappears like a shooting star.
a story-teller can't win a photocopier machine. look at the number of subjects which 'can be regurgitated'. it's so sickening. this system we are in is so full of errors, it could lead to a shutdown for some.
me included.
there can never be a fair basis for examinations. i've said this countless times - why should we be tested on subs which are not relevant to our future? why can't i just write essays and more essays and be assessed for that? why must i do calculations, or explain biological processes?
wrong sub combi? wrong sch? wrong country? wrong world?
or maybe im just the wrong person.
i tried so hard for some, and in the end i just got back an ungraded. three in fact. the other two are bananas which can be harvested without spending too much time on the plantation. i knew my forte long ago, but i never knew there can be such a great difference between such subs.
failure is acceptable. but not at such an alarming rate. 3/5 subs? what have i done? i can already predict what mr chan will say during ptm. it sucks when ur math tchr is also ur civics tutor. i can imagine the incessant ranting by my parents after ptm.
and this means i most prob will have to attend 3 remedial sessions ( math alr confirmed ). econs ok la, but bio? pls la, remedial with sharon cross as well go and study on ur own. prob wont fall asleep too.
u know u dun have a life when 'how to save a life' has been playing since the comp was on, even when ur in the dining having dinner.
cts are just one bloody issue im trying to resolve. there's still other stuff which a high quality sponge like me cannot reveal. but i just want to say that everything has happened at the worst time possible. my reconstruction obstructed, my descent accelerated.
thank u to all my friends - retards, bowlers, ex-4i and a few others. hanging out with u all slows down my decomposition. if only the pieces which fall could be collected and put back together again.
cherry garcia..
6:33 PM
