i think it's time to get my parents to subscribe to the football channel.
i've spent 2 seasons watching seconds-delayed telecasts on a small window on my comp, sometimes having to endure frustrating lags or even disconnections.
the problem is, if things still don't improve, i won't be able to watch sun matches.
oh yeah, not to forget the last few remaining f1 races as well.
what a shame schumi is not coming back.
there i was hoping to get an autograph from him, somehow.
u know, when u look back at the past sporting legends, u realise how much time has escaped from u.
schumi was alr a legend in pri sch.
the arsenal invincibles were on fire in secondary school.
there're days when i talk to my buddy abt pri sch - we only realised we were ex-sch mates 2 wks into unit life.
and how innocent children were then.
hopping on inclined pull-up boards escaping a crocodile.
large-scale block catching.
crazy crushes.
cheap and really nice canteen food.
and then u look at the kind of life we're in now.
could we have done more then?
each time we're in a new stage of our lives, we tend to hate it and want to move on asap.
the time comes and then we wanna go back to the past.
oh, ri was becoming so boring in sec 4, we couldn't wait to go nxt door.
then when we wore pants with pleats and were finally joined by girls in green skirts we looked back at the old buildings and sighed.
rooms filled with fun and nonsense were replaced with those trapping us in an inevitable system.
then we got so sick of studying we couldnt wait to graduate.
suddenly we were no longer in white but green, and getting mindfucked more than 10000 stacks of bio notes.
just another test subject in a system that up to now has never really been tested.
44 years ppl.
do we really want to continue being plugged in?
44 years ppl.
it's a whole new world out here.
we're getting too smart for the system, yet we're letting it ruin our intelligence with authority.
may that supervirus please stop hiding.
there's nothing to do here other than think.
and regret.
i cannot explain to u how depressing it is to be here.
sometimes i wonder if the rambutan tree was fake.
really it should have withered and collapsed.
maybe outside the clear sunny skies is actually a storm.
i find myself wasting a lot of time at home.
staring at a screen plugged into another system.
maybe it's coz there's no one at home everytime im back.
maybe im out of ideas.
but again, i should stop going out too.
my expenditure nearly hit 200 in just 2 wkends.
maybe i should just try to live a really simple life.
instant noodles and peanut butter and jam.
all i wanted to do was to escape.
but not everyone can understand.
so, don't ever ask me where to eat again.
i dun want to org anything either.
i dun want to do all the thinking only to be let down by ppl who pull out.
and disappoint those who came.
cherry garcia..
2:26 PM
